Wednesday, November 21, 2007
have you ever tried to reach out to someone whom you think is troubled?? have you ever tried so hard but got nothing out of them ?? do you care so much that you feel their plight ?? but there's nothing you can do cause they refuse to open.
well what if you are the kind of person like me, who cannot tolerate not being comfortable nor understanding the one close to you, will you choose to fall in love with him ?? it makes people feel so scared. never once i met someone who kind of hide themselves in front of me, somehow i guessed them all correct. this time, i meet with someone whom i totally don't know what he's thinking or feeling. i don't know what to do, i feel lost and helpless, hanging out there.
it's like walking in a pitch dark room where there's obstacles everywhere and you can't see it to remove it.
i'm scared i really am. why am i twining myself into this emotional turmoil ?? why don't i go for something i feel better with. i just want to, something in me pushes me forward to this. but i really need someone to keep me safe and warm, i don't want to be like this always.
i am so scared of everything now ........... ='( i hate this.
when you walk away, i count the steps you take.
but i guess it's ok, cause i'm still afraid anyway.
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