Monday, February 25, 2008
OMG !!! so long never blog, don't tell me i really lost interest in blogging eh. sorry to the i-don't-know-how-many readers. i'm just literally too lazy la.esp when i have to work on weekends during my holidays when others are practically enjoying life. i get so tired that i don't even feel like hanging out on weekdays. i sound like such an old hag who lazes around at home all day. well it's better than being jasper =) attachment right away after 5 freaking exam papers. totally no holidays one can. if it's me i'll withdraw from the course right away LMAO !!!yes yes yes, many of you know i work and i might seem a lil richer than before but what's the use, mommy and daddy doesn't not gimme anymore allowance so i'm like fighting for sales to survive and i just got ticked off by a smart alec customer today, *eff you !!!then my friend told me, "ask him to come teach you how to sell printers la, see who can sell better lor." then all of a sudden, my weariness and unhappiness was washed away by a stupid smile haha. thanks friend, that's what i need, someone to be there and believe in me no matter what happens =) i knew it came right from your heart cause i can sense that you were angry with that fella even though i'm the one he told off. haha what cute friends i have.one a lil saddening thing that i heard is about my parents which i shan't elaborate. not that i'm not given birth by my own mother but hiyah, it's a good yet erm .... i dunno bad news ?? there are some things which i can't bear to let go of.*SIGHS* why does god create life in such a way that it's so hard even for just things to run smoothly and lead a simple life ? why is it so hard to survive ?dear friends and readers, i've added a new simple friend test basically because my e-mail address is too long for the login ID blank so i had to create new test in order to get to the create account page which has a larger limit for word count so that i can log in. this was the way i used to log i last time, but now the system is abit different already.why can't they just increase the limit by 1 freaking letter. i was about to type '' ...................@hotmail.co" then the bloody "m" cannot fit in =.= caused me so much trouble. so zhen kai should feel honoured that i'm doing this just to view his results LMAO !!ok la, very lor sor. it's getting really late now and i gotta wake up early tomorrow. goodnight guys !!! wish you guys all the best in luck and whatever you might wanna do, i just hope for everyone to lead a good life and be happy. cause only by then, happiness can spread around =) GOODNIGHT !! *see goodnight also must type one whole stupid paragraph =xxx
/2:51 AM
Friday, February 15, 2008
i'm fuming with anger now !! not exactly though, i just feel irritated the whole day. not just because i didn't do well for the paper. but also because my internet is like getting laggier by the day. can't upload photos cause the upload button can't work no matter how many times i refresh the page, so nvm.didn't sleep for the whole of last night. being the usual last min gan jiong spider, i went to school around 7plus though jasper didn't sms me to wake me up. (i didn't sleep anyway.)was expecting school to be ren shan ren hai, but was quite empty, so happily i went to buy newpaper and some stationeries, then settled myself on the benches at convention center. was going to start my mugging for exams when these two ladies or aunties came to my bench and sat down without asking.preach to me about christianity. being a little more patient than before, i tried to listen instead of shooing them away la. but my decision was wrong, they got more and more overboard and started blabbering away. taking out don't know how many bibles for me to see but hold it far away till i can't even read it.yeah i know christ is god, a very noble one. i was once a christian but i converted. i told them that i know what they are trying to tell me, but then religion wise i will leave it more or less flexible, plus i already hinted them that i will check it up if i want to and i do not appreciate people preaching in public grounds.they say they WERE from ngee ann, so they came early in the morning just to disturb people from studying their exams ? if other days i will still entertain them, but HELLO !!! i'm having my exams a few hours later, can be more considerate anot ?? even michele who wasn't at convention center kanna lor.was bloody pissed off until i had to really shoo them away with nasty words. ok to whoever who's christian reading this, i will like to make it clear that i'm not against any religion but i just don't like this happen. i respect every religion as it's own, but preaching like that seriously ain't gonna earn any respect for your own religion ya.after they left i studied like mad, just to find out that out of the 7 chapters i covered, 3 came out, which was good. but then come out one all irrelevant to what's in her "notes" !!! everyone was like caught totally off guard because the questions and the strategies were something she didn't really cover in class !!!of course pissed right. and of all good things, when i was walking outta school feeling rather glum already, the two AUNTIES appeared. and asked for my contacts so that they can meet me out to study bibles. like OMG !! how many times must i tell them that my house bai shen one, how to bring bible home !! plus i know what i wanna believe in, can't they just respect people's choice ??i have many friends out there who wanna be a christian but can't find the way to, go look for those !! why pester me. in the end i really needed to threatened them of harassment before they reluctantly leave. apparently in the first place i shouldn't have acknowledged their presence. i already made it very obvious that i ain't interested in listening. while they were talking i was reading my papers. and their skin really thick enough lor !!!what a bad day. sorry my christian friends, u know even normally i don't have an issue with believing different religions but those two aunties really tarnish the image of christians in me.i just hope they will kindly leave the school and never come back again, hopefully i won't see them outside. we have christian clubs in school, let them do the job, not you. grrrrrrrrrrr !!!!!!!!!!SO BLOODY IRRITATING !!!!!!!!
/8:22 PM
HAHA !!! ok i changed song already. everytime see nice song always tempted to put it here haha. not racist or what la, i just find it very cute.will be having my first and my last paper tomorrow, and guess what ?? i haven't really started mugging on it. haha wish me luck !!!am going to gym after exams, hoho. so miracle right. so any of you who are free after exams can join me =) gimme a call !!! nights !!!
/2:36 AM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
argh i hate today. i've never felt more outcasted than ever. i wished i could have stepped out of that place or at least make things better, but everything's pulling me back.and i went home with an empty stomach after 7-8hours of non-successful mugging but in reality, just to make the effort to see you that once. why is it that i feel the pain when i don't feel that important to you. why do i feel inferior in front of you just because i'm not the most important person of your life ? why don't i dare to stand close to you ? why do i feel like i have no right to take a step further ?
i think i'm flooded with inappropriate expectations. sounds like early childhood principles of classroom management huh. but then it happens on a grown up. i think i should stop using endearing addresses on others. cause after you shower someone with endearments for a period of time, you might just think that he/she is the special one, which in fact, was supposed to be a joke in between both of you.yeap i need to keep a distance, so that i can be single, and i can never be hurt by others, nor will i hurt anyone.but i really feel so sad now, i DON'T WANT TO FALL IN LOVE !!! argh .... i'm so afraid can. to know that u might like someone who don't like you, it's terrible.from now on, i will brush off all silly thoughts of you, you refers to whoever i might be close to. no matter now or the future, i wanna be single, unless you convince me not to.i need a psychaitrist (don't know how to spell la) !!!i do not have my menses today, so i don't know why things turned out like that. but i could at least still smile and talk to people although it's like raining inside me. gosh i need to sleep.i wanna sleep away this terrible day.and the last thing, which many of the emo guys out there might be saying ...I HATE VALENTINE'S, cause i'm alone again, for the 17th time. life sucks, doesn't it ?
/10:43 PM
i don't know to feel sad or to feel angry. why can't i be just as insensitive as others can be.you have a friend, she has a boyfriend, but me ? no one.i don't know why the sudden emotion that i'm left all alone, to travel a long journey home.somehow my anticipation was washed off with your reluctance. but perhaps, it's me expecting too much again.will the "he" ever appear ?it's feels like the tears are gonna fall again.
/7:45 PM
Monday, February 11, 2008
WAHAHA !!! changed blog song again !!! YES again !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!very nice right !!! but very sad la. if this song was out about two years ago, it will be the perfect song to describe my feelings then. eeyer, don't talk about sad stuff haha.it's been VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY LONG since i've last do up a decent post. but then ..... all of a sudden, i dunno where to start from, so many things happened hmmmm .... and i was enjoying my non-blogging life =xxxone thing terrible i can remember is when i was on my way home after a late night drink with my colleagues then i walked from the hougang interchange MRT exit there. it was damn dark and i couldn't see anything. then i somehow noticed a very big black patch on the pavement. so i moved aside so as not to step on it. as i got closer, i saw that it was a dead cat with a pool of blood there =.= i almost freaked out. how come my night blindness duwan to act up at that time !!!! grrrr !!!second thing is .... i have a new bf. just kidding haha. but i've been chatting with jasper almost everyday, dunno he love me anot LOL !!! obviously i know he will read this so i must disturb him HAHA !!! do u love mee ?? how abt beehoon then ?? *so cold !!!!P.S. er jie, he's not your bf jasper, so don't worry =)))i really dunno what to say except, enjoy the song, happy new year and goodnight =)))oh ya one more thing, I WANT MAHJONG !!!CIAO !!
/1:13 AM
Monday, February 4, 2008
OKOK !!! i know i VERY long never blog haha, don't kp me ok ? =)i stumbled across someone's friendster and found this ancient song that i used to love.depressing song right ?? at least it is from my part of memories and past experiences.well i'm leading a depressing life ok !!! cause i have no sales today !! haha.THE-END =x
/3:38 AM
