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Sunday, October 7, 2007

WHOOSSH !!! back from camp !! been missing for quite a number of days. wasn't home for the whole week and didn't miss it at all >.<

on the 1st of october was the first day of my chalet, loads of things to do. things didn't exactly go right. yeah, i bao ka liao everything, from preparation of food to cooking to washing with the help of people like joseph, jia bao and a few others. as for the rest hmmmm ... no comments.

it was a bloodshed. shar cut his hand while opening the can, i cut my finger when it slid down the sharp side of the tongs when i was washing it. jiabao broke my beer bottle and didn't sweep it clean enough. i stepped on the little pieces and my blood was everywhere on the floor. hmmmm ... loads of mahjong there, but without money involved.

on 2nd of october in the evening, we set off for choir. after choir, went home to get some stuff then went to jing's house to stayover. purpose was to practice our group item for ACS night but wee nee ended up sleeping cause she got bus sick. we should have at least go through it ma sian, so in the end never perform. i didn't really sleep that few nights.

went to meet mr lim on the 3rd at seng kang for lunch. he treated me to jack's place. went back to seng kang primary, saw my pri 5 and 6 form teacher, kinda awkward la, very long never talk to her. then went to visit mr devin who is the discipline master when i was in SKPS until now. then mr lim drove me home.

packed bag for choir camp then went to meet kenny at IKEA tampines. bought alot of stuff and in the end might not be able to claim lor =.= thanks alisa for telling us that club house don't have this and that. then in the end buy le, may aun say got ALOT of them. OMG !! 50plus bucks can.

went back to chalet and slept .............

went home with my mum as i couldn't find my sleeping bag for camp. she lost it and apparently i got very pissed when she pushed the blame on me. she always does that la. everytime what i never say she sure will say that i said ot, when i say she totally don't remember, don't know is purposely or what. seriously, is it so hard to say "i'm sorry" ? she wanted to go get a new one then cab over to my school but i had totally no time, so i just went out without saying a word. i was really fuming mad la, but i just had no mood to argue things out with her. just sleep on the floor lor.

camp was fine. it's my first time as an event coordinator, so many things i overlooked in my planning surfaced and i had to solve it la. sorry guys for the injuries and unhappy stuff. i hope they had enjoyed some of the activities planned though not everything was executed according to plan.

throughout the camp, i didn't sleep for more than 3 hours can. the floor was so eff-ing cold. i switched the temperature higher, but don't know why, always people go and switch back. kaos, then everyday not enough sleep but touch the "bed" don't feel like sleeping le. if this goes on, i'm gonna get exhaustion. also thanks to feng kai who half the time squeeze me to death haha. ask me to lie down cannot sit up cause my back view look scary =.= brought me to the girl's toilet in his dream when it was he himself who wanna go toilet =.= i thought where he wanna go, very late le ma 4am, dangerous then i have to acc in case anything happens we know. how i know in the end got scammed LOL !!!

during the waterbomb session, those stupid security guards just have to piss us off. PUI ar !!! my ACS night song was screwed, i actually forgot the lyrics !! for the first time of my life. people got injured. i was in the best of mood. i never sleep for 5days. GOOD AR !!!

we had an external speaker and to my surprise, he is DR zechariah goh !!! gio's choir instructor. what a coincidence. his workshop was quite helpful but what a pity, i cannot afford any higher commitment level thus not being able to join amadeus.

feeling very shag now, everything seems to be spinning around me but i just can't fall asleep though i very much want to. i'm longing for someone .........

to add on to my unhappiness, the staff in KFC just have to piss us off again. yes they have a very small lobby area, we are a big group but we aren't in anyway blocking others' way can. want us to wait god-knows-how-long just for a freaking 8seater. can't we just combine tables ?? i felt like scolding her until my saliva was all over her face can.

then some dragon boat guys passed by she stole glances at them and smiled to herself, like so damn er xin la !!! she should see at the way she looks when she "blushed" like freaking er xin la !!

another family occupied the same seat we wanted to sit and block the whole passageway with their trolley, she never say anything can !! FUCK her man !!! we were very pissed, she still go complain to her manager about us. he didn't even comment anything lor !! we never complain she still dare complain KAOs !! what is this world becoming of ?? totally pissed.

took bus home with feng kai, evelyn and TQ. bathed and went to aunty's house. just don't like to stay at home la >.<

just like evelyn, october is like our bad luck month la. she got injured twice in the same week very poor thing. now my mum says that my dad don't want give her money to let me learn piano, she just quit her job, might not be able to afford it. dash my dreams again. nvm, if i have the time, i go back work and earn money to pay for it myself.

it feels weird not to talk to you for some time. not seeing your name appearing online at night. i didn't have strength to think that much but something just felt missing. during practice i saw the flipping of scores and i remembered when i sat beside you. looking at you engrossed in your playing. me not knowing where the score was played till, flipping the pages late making you miss a note. even if it's just as simple as to sit beside you and see you smile again, i'm more than glad.

though you seldom smile or laugh but i always hope that i can be the one to make you do so. i like to see you happy. it was kinda nostalgic for me when i see people playing the piano with a page turner. i miss someone.

hmmmm let me not think that much. and just go back and sleep, maybe when i wake up things will be different again. maybe my feelings for him will fade alot more le, who knows ? i hope so ....

/10:30 PM