Tuesday, December 11, 2007
yeah maybe i overreacted towards this matter or what. i just hate it when my emotions get the better of me. one minute i'm so happy that i can tolerate any nonsense u give me, the other minute i can get so particular about everything.
though those were the things that i hated most which u did, but according to my normal self, i could have tolerated and give in, but at that moment i don't know why i just refused. i know u always made me felt worthless but i know i can take it one lor, but i don't understand the sudden outburst.
later on, something which i don't like happened again. which is people not replying msg-es, but i really had no more strength to cry nor get angry anymore. so i just asked my mum out for sushi. and i kept gorging myself like dunno what. sinful >.<
one of my favourite --> hana sushi
another favourite, hokkigai sashimi. amaebi just so-so la.
salmon didn't taste that nice today.
see they got sell shark !!! kiap u to death =.= no la it's salmon head.
red bean mochi's really nice =)
i asked mommy to order sake, she say waste money. so she went home after footing the bill while i stayed around with marie. waited for her to knock off, then slack and talked alot. kept "sticking" one after another. i really need to cut down la. went home and finished up the whole bottle of liquor, end up go toilet vomit out =.= i don't think u wanna see a photo of that.
but i just hope my eating disorder don't come back. i used to have it, either i eat alot or don't eat at all when i'm upset, stressed or whatever. i could sustain myself with 3 spoons of rice for one week last time. that time my mom brought me to psychologist =.= but that was 3 years ago. now almost everytime i eat i feel like vomiting, i don't know why, but i just hope it's not back la.
next few photos are just random crazy photos that i feel too lazy to caption. can stop here if u want.
i like this photo alot, i don't know why.
wa si bei lian hor !!
smoking in lecture hall ?? 
look closely !! am i smoking ?? no la, it's michele new cigarette pen =.= looks damn real lor.
act act, act somemore !!
yes that's how tired i am, those stupid eyebags and lousy complexion.
all i wish for now is to be happy and let nothing affect me. i don't wanna be depressed anymore, so even if u decide to treat me like this or ignore me any longer, i'll still be the happy girl i am. because i really don't wish people to say that i care for them on my own accord, not they want one. it really hurts and insults everything i try to do for them. if it's ain't appreciated, i'll take it back then.
so long as you feel comfortable with it, i'm ok =)))
YES JOLYNN SMILE !!! show the whole world that you are happy !!!
you are beautiful,
no matter what they say,
cause words can't bring you down ~~~ =)))))))))
/11:38 PM
